Archives for the month of: February, 2013

Society seems to have adopted an unwritten rule that says language must be shot full of 4-letter words to be powerful. Who slipped that into the rule book anyway? (No need to hide your hands; it’s written all over your face, my friend.)

In my musings about this less-than-amusing topic, I played with other ways we deceive ourselves under false pretenses. With my number 7 Life Purpose and its inherent quest for truth, it took about 5 seconds to see one in myself. (You’re going to pull it out of me, aren’t you? Yeah, I knew you would…)

Okay, confession time. My name is Rayora Hartman and I am an information junkie.

There, I said it. Now the whole world knows and I am forever accountable for every scrap of paper, forwarded email, and newspaper clipping that clutters my world.

How can such a benign habit be detrimental? By masquerading as time well invested when applying even a tenth of what we read could truly change our lives.

The worst part is this time-sucking venture can be contagious not just between us number 7s but those creative number 3s and 6s. Those with numbers 4 or 8 carry more immunity because their structured ways inhibit such foolishness. Number 2s aren’t quite as lucky, since they love to cooperate and support–even to the point of sharing your dis-ease. The only unpredictable ones in the game are the number 5s, who may show extreme interest in your obsessive diversions one day and be off to another adventure the next.

This can be a difficult ailment to diagnose. Its symptoms tend to vary greatly. So for the good of humanity I’ve compiled a list of my own. (Oops! Pardon me. A touch of the martyred number 6 just slipped in.) You may want to hide quickly behind you own mask of delusion if any of these sound familiar.

1. Own 20 cookbooks and a computer paper box of recipe clippings when I don’t like to cook.
2. Boast six overflowing bookcases I’ve purged three times and still hold books untouched for 10 years.
3. Excuse myself for having over 3,000 emails in my inbox after hearing someone else say they had 10,000. Golly, what am I worried about with a piddly 3,000? (Addicts can always point out the real junkies, you know.)
4. Explain to company that I got my “pile-it’s license” years ago.
5. Filled three or four file cabinets with “resource material” that is threatening to mummify.
6. Invest several weeks each year in sorting treasure that make me sneeze.

Need I go on?

Now that I have bared by soul before you (Darn that 6!) let’s look at a time proven remedy for this ailment. It’s called “TAKING ACTION.” Did you realize that the only way to truly retain information is to take action on it? “Use it or lose it” holds new meaning here. Oh, those 50,000 words a day you read may slip into the syrupy maze of the subconscious. I’m talking about usable information that truly benefits your life.

Funny thing about that word “action.” Using Pythagorean Numerology it carries an 18/9 vibration. Eighteen is the number of unconditional love and 9 is the ultimate humanitarian number. It is a vibration that can be used either to lead or mislead. No inaction here!

Let’s look at the words within the word. (For you word junkies, this is a lexigram.) Now what do you see? The word begins with “act,” ends with “on,” with “I” in the middle. So in action you see that “I act on” something. Throw in some numerology and this is what you see: I = 1 (leader/teacher); act = 6 (devoted counselor and/or artist); on = 11 (a high energy number inviting you to step from the old into the new). Dynamic, man! How cool is that?

Without realizing it you may have ignored one of the most powerful words in the English language. It’s just too bad it’s not spelled with four letters or started with an “f” so it can get some respect.

Now it’s your turn. Are you an information junkie too? What steals your hours and keeps you from taking action to better your life? Have you found a remedy? Leave a comment below so we can learn from each other.


Now, where did we leave off in our exploration of numbers in shadow? Oh, yes. Number 6. (See my last post for numbers 1-5.) Are you ready? That’s it, lean into the screen a bit because this is going to be good! Oooo…I love a good mystery, don’t you? Watch your toes now; these shadows are sneaky.

Okay, let’s review a few facts before taking our next step, Sherlock. Remember that number shadow traits in numerology appear when we slip into energetic imbalance. Numbers that play prominently in your astro-numerology chart (like your Life Purpose, Destiny, and Day of Birth numbers) will then exhibit these traits until the light of awareness shines on them. With clarity, we are then empowered to transform these lower vibrations into their highest expressions. That then fully supports the soul’s intended purpose for this lifetime. Got that? Good. Then let’s move on.

The 6 is a totally lovable number—unless it’s not. When you become anxious and domineering, it’s likely this number is expressing in shadow. You find yourself suspicious, interfering, and easily upset. Or you become bossy and emotionally controlling. To do this your old nemesis co-dependency moves to the fore, waving its flag emblazoned with “APPRECIATE ME!” When the appreciation doesn’t come, you grow increasingly resentful of your service to others. “Why can’t others do something sometimes? Do I have to do everything?” you cry to anyone who will listen. Your expectations of others grow and grow, leaving you bitterly disappointed in them and the unfairness of it all. As your sense of feeling unloved and unvalued grows, so does your sweet tooth. You reach for another carton of ice cream to go with the last two pieces of chocolate cake you’ve decided to finish off. Alas, a ravenous sweet tooth, your final indicator of a number 6 rocking wildly out of control.

How do you get back the lovability that epitomizes the best of this number? Again, awareness is the key. See the hollowness of the behaviors you’ve been justifying and allow this vision to move you into acceptance of yourself and others with love and balance. From there, the higher vibrations of a poised, magnetic nurturer can again express in harmonious ways. Your advice will hold truth rather than neediness and find receptive ears. After all, you adore your family and want only the best for them. Compassionate teachers always are needed, and this you truly are. Oh, and remember to sing. Sixes love music! So the dog covers his ears. Big deal. Invite him to howl along.

Moving right along, number 7 in shadow expresses when you are skeptical or isolated. Ever find yourself avoiding the present by living in the past? Where did those days go? You find yourself brooding, secretive, suspicious, fearful, and/or nervous. You feel confused so act out by appearing stubborn, cold, or aloof. Nothing is right anymore, so you criticize…and criticize…and criticize some more. You either talk too much or don’t talk at all and finally find yourself so emotionally shut down that you feel nothing anymore. You’re a hermit, a loner. And you like it that way, dadgumit! Or so you say.

Enough already! Wake up! The number 7 is in your blueprint to teach you trust and show you how to detach from illusion. You are a powerful being; claim it. This number brings lightening insights which sets you apart in many ways. Your mental faculties are great and your spiritual insights likely even greater. Yours is a world of deep truths and applied wisdom, delivered with serenity and balance to those who will hear. Your love of nature is your main restorer, so remember this when rebalancing is needed.

Do you fear failure and sometimes find yourself being dishonest to cover for it? If so, you’ve set the stage for the shadow traits of number 8. Here you may find yourself living in the past while gauging everything by its materialistic value. That prom dress made you feel like a million bucks, didn’t it? And of course nothing’s ever replaced your generation’s priceless dance; the Jitterbug, the Twist, the Frog, the Leopard. Was there a Leopard? I digress. So sink your claws into this. Out-of-balance 8s demand control, can be scheming, impatient, intolerant and bad tempered. You may be egotistical, demand recognition, and exhibit total disregard for others. As the character-eroding skid quickens you abuse power, create flashy displays of wealth, and fall into careless handling of money.

“Handcuffs, officer? Is that really necessary? I was going to pay it back…” (Oops!)

Well, maybe that stint behind bars will turn the light onto the virtues your soul intended to exhibit through this number’s vibration. The 8 teaches courage under pressure and honor in any circumstance. It’s a powerful number of success, confidence, and dependability. Respect for money is its hallmark, with the awareness that money in an energy exchange; nothing more, nothing less. When 8s are expressing their highest virtues, they are good judges of character—which they likewise exhibit—and are uniquely gifted in finding solutions. So step out into freedom and be the honorable leader you came here to be.

The number 9 holds a complex vibration that includes the aspects of all the numbers before it. If 9 is prominent in your chart, you are greatly blessed. Yet much is expected of you as well. Sometimes the weight of that expectation leads to the demise, temporarily or otherwise, of falling out of integrity and/or becoming ego-centric. When this happens, you become frustrated, tense, and won’t listen to anyone. You become resentful and indifferent. The world’s the pits and no one has it as badly as you do. No one! You become an instrument of cruelty and abuse. You can’t see that you are the one acting from ignorance, not everyone else, and flail aimlessly against the wind, devoid of any sensitivity for the rest of humanity. You rail on in desperation, becoming weakened to the point of gullibility.

“Sure, I’ll carry that bomb. Who cares, anyway? At least I’ll go out with a bang. Then they’ll wish they’d listened to me.”

WAIT! THIS IS NOT YOU! This, dear one, is your shadow. You who were born with the 9 vibration came to show unconditional love and complete acceptance of all that is. In your highest expression, you are attuned to brotherly/sisterly love and universal truth as no other. You embody integrity, non-judgment, and compassion for all. Generosity and imagination are guided by your discernment in all things. Don’t waste yourself on a bomb. You can be dramatic, it’s true. And you can be a heck of a romantic as well. (Just thought you might like to know that.) Make your point, whether personally or publicly, because you are here for humanitarian service in whatever form you choose to express it. How cool is that?!

Well, Sherlock, I think we solved the mystery of The Shadow. You did well, my friend. Looking at The Shadow is too scary for most, but you did your life proud. Now may I have my flashlight back? I think something’s standing on my foot.

Shadows. I love them. In certain places, that is. I love shadows in nature, in paintings, in photography. They add contrast and depth, don’t you think?

There’s another kind of shadow, however, playing around you continually that can go undetected for decades. Then one day, there it is, staring you in the face. Eye to eye, nose to nose, foot to foot—or more accurately foot on foot, daring you to move forward.

Funny thing about shadows; they disappear when you shed light on them. So let me beam a little light your way right now about the shadow side of (drum roll, please…) NUMBERS.

Numerology looks at the shadow side of numbers all the time. Why? Because it shows where and how our greatest lessons in life show up. Oh, brother, and how! So are you ready to enter the world of shadows and light with me for a few minutes? Then read on, my friend, read on.

The shadow side of a number refers to its lower qualities. When exhibited in life, they carry a lower energy vibration which can actually feel tiring in many cases. If you are sensitive to the “vibes” others give off, you may feel drained after such an encounter. Test yourself, if in doubt, by checking how you feel after being with certain people in your life. Are you energized and uplifted or left feeling like a limp noodle and out of sorts? Pretty easy to see, isn’t it?

Now here’s a clinker. If you are drawn to people who live at these vibrations, it’s because of what’s called “vibrational resonance.” You’re an energetic match—and that goes for high or low energy emissions. The shadow side will express when you are out of balance energetically. This is not something to be condemned but recognized. Let’s take a look.

Leaders have the number 1 somewhere predominantly in their numbers. Count on it. (Wink!) Identify a leader, private or public, who seems driven to achieve, achieve, achieve and doesn’t care who gets hurt in the process. There you have number 1 in shadow. Now, if you emulate this person or see a similar pattern in your own life you are in vibrational resonance. Deny it, and you are only deceiving yourself. Ahhh…deceiving, another aspect of the 1 shadow, as is boredom, boastfulness, self-centeredness or self-consciousness, stubbornness or laziness. Now throw in some repressed emotions. Oh, that doesn’t feel good, does it? But wait! Here’s the cool part. Once you see and acknowledge the shadow aspects in yourself, you are empowered to change them. This doesn’t mean stomping the 1 traits out of existence but transforming them to the higher vibrational attributes. The light of awareness is on and you can step forward. To do this you harness the intellectually focused aspect of this number to see the goal line and go for it without harm to others. You are now an ambitious activator with a strong will that motivates others. Your determination and originality make you a standout with those around you, making many eager to jump on board for the good of all. No more win-lose, people, because win-win is now running the game.

Not all of us are leaders. If 2 is a predominant number in your blueprint, you find leadership daunting. If you are living from its lower aspects, you may even be cowardly. At the least, you feel plagued by insecurity, shyness, and timidity at every turn. Life feels confusing and you sink into moodiness, become overly emotional, and may even slip into depression at times. You feel conflicted and are easily offended so find yourself chronically nursing hurt feelings. Or to bolster your low self-confidence, you find yourself meddling in others’ lives to avoid your own. How sad! (Tissue, please. Sniff, sniff…) Life is just soooo hard for a 2 in shadow. And it was never meant to be that way. So turn your light on high beam, see the hole you’re stuck in and get rolling again! The high vibration of the 2 emanates peace of mind, gentle communication, and diplomacy in bridging and harmonizing opposites. You are the ones who can demonstrate true cooperation and collaboration with a sincerity that moves others forward. You are flexible and supportive, friendly and loving, and an exemplary companion and/or partner. Just remember that the first person you need to support is yourself.

Three is the number of creativity. Yet people living the shadow side of this number can drive everyone else crazy. They are superficial, scattered, impulsive, and talk too much. They can be jealous, critical, unforgiving, moody, and at times real worriers. Yet their worrying will not drive them to find solutions for they lack focus and concentration. They avoid responsibility, dislike anything attached to work, and can spend countless hours on trivial details. Sound familiar? OK, you can stop nodding now. Let’s see how this number can transform into a magnificent vibration indeed. Often the first step after awareness for someone stuck in the lower vibration of the 3 is to actively create something. That starts the juices flowing again. Threes are quick to act, so this helps. They also love beauty and are charming optimists who can delight others with cheerfulness and enthusiasm. They make great writers and humorists and artists of all kinds since they overflow with imagination. They can express these ideas with a sensitivity that uplifts others as they uplift themselves.

Now take a look at the number 4 for a minute. See that downward line? Think of it as a post going into the ground that holds everything else together. The number 4 emanates structure and stability. And when 4 goes into shadow, well, you hardly recognize yourself. You become stubborn, argumentative, and totally lacking in humor. You grow far too serious, become narrow-minded, and resist anything new. Your impatience grows right along with your building displeasure as you allow pet prejudices to mushroom in importance and drive wedges of insecurity in and around you. Ooooh…not pretty! From my experience, 4 is one of the most challenging to shift. Why? Because of the stubbornness, narrow-mindedness, and resistance that sets in. Yet to live the life you intended, shift you must. So step into that solid work ethic you so easily resonate with and apply it now like never before. Those in higher 4 vibration are true physical manifesters who ground ideas through discipline and work. Your inspirations are brilliant in their simplicity; own them. Approaching life with step-by-step organization feels natural and restores stability, order, and productivity to your life. Your practicality and straight-forward reliability is likely rooted in your home and family, so start by focusing there. Watch the transformations begin!

Now let’s move from the stability-loving 4 to the freedom-loving 5. To pinpoint the shadow side of the 5 in yours or others’ lives, look for restlessness and irresponsibility. Fives in shadow become thoughtless, careless, and discontent. This can show up in impulsive behavior, gambling, and taking dangerous risks. Procrastination can couple with loss of faith that may lead to addictions and sexual imbalances. The love of freedom is masked in uncertainty and an ominous fear of change. Where is the freedom now? While it is true that a balanced 5 vibration gets restless under routine and thrives on feeling uninhibited, the freedom perceived when living from its shadow side are delusional at best. Recognizing this allows the shift to begin. Fives are naturally brave, courageous, and dynamic and thrive on unbridled adventure. If the number 5 figures predominantly in your blueprint, you seek a life of experience and are continually progressive in your thinking. What’s next, you wonder? You are magnetic and clever, often witty and highly energized. This blends well with your flexibility and adaptability to all kinds of situations. Indeed, change is your constant friend.

The action continues from here with numbers 6 through 9, which I will save for my next post. Just remember that the shadow aspects of any number are not your enemy. They are here to teach you some of the most valuable lessons you will ever learn. As your awareness grows and you embrace both the shadow and the higher aspects, life grows rich again. The shadow again becomes a thing of beauty, adding new dimensions to your life’s portrait. The surrounding scene expands and evolves with each passing moment, creating the wonders of you. So get your shadow off your foot and leap into action. And if that sounds a bit colorful and poetic, blame it on my 3s.

Smiling with you till next time when we continue our exploration of the shadow.